I won't justify, the way I live my life. - Sick Puppies, Riptide
Happiness is something you achieve when you're doing something you love. common sense tells you that happiness can be garnered from the presence of friends and family. Or by playing a game or hanging out. But, you ever had that one something, that one something that makes you happy but no one else can understand. To me, that's true happiness. When what you have is yours and yours alone. When no one else can comprehend why you love it so much, but you do.
Joy is something you get when your out with friends, or when you achieve a good grade in an exam. But happiness is something much more raw. Something which makes you look at the past, present and future of your life and actually be excited by what have and yet to be happening.To all those out there, if you have something that makes you happy, but everyone else refuses to accept it, screw them. I believe in holding on to the things that help inspire your mind and dreams. Happiness comes along only once in a while. Might as well take it.
What brings me to this topic is that i've been relatively happy with my life recently. Besides the fact that my studies are becoming increasingly difficult to cope with, and that trials are right around the corner, everything else have been great. My social life have been satisfactory, I feel less pressured to do certain things. My life has always been split into a few sections. This is due to the fact that unlike my sister, i like to keep my group of friends separate as much as possible.
Whenever i'm out having fun with 1 group of friends, i tend to feel bored or discontempt when i'm out with another group of friends. This cycle applies to any section of my life. This use to cause grief to me everytime i think about it. but recently, i embraced it. I embrace the fact i have lots of good friends and that I was luckily sociable enough as a kid to earn them. I used to be jealous when i see how close knit other people are with their friends, but i am glad I have a wide range of friends rather than a close group of a few people.
Take it however you see fit, but this is how i plan to live my life. By cutting out complications and just taking life as it comes, i somehow found it refreshing. I do the things that i love without caring about what others think, and I face everyday as a new challenge. Of course there are still days where i have various "FML" moments but thats something everyone goes through here and now. I think i have been acomplished in balancing my social, sports, and academic life over the past few years. I don't plan to excel tremendously in any field, just be average in all of it.
Anyway, just a random post i've been wanting to do. My mood have been more up than down recently. I discovered new things, and also with football season coming back, i look forward to every weekend with an extra glow. My friends are busy stressing over their exams, and i do admit i have to start putting in more effort as well, but i don't see the point of pushing yourself to a point where you end up hating yourself. Just ain't worth it. =)
